Winning the Lottery
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to win the lottery?
Ever imagined what it would feel like to have a great fortune come your way?
Have you ever dreamed of what you would do with it all?
Give big, invest, start your dream business, quit your day job, vacation more, volunteer more because now you have more time, buy whatever you want and help others out in ways you never could before.
The possibilities are endless, and your life would inevitably be changed forever.
But, let’s be realistic, the chances of you winning the lottery are around 1 in 175 million in most cases.
Sorry to disappoint you.
Here’s the kicker, I have won the lottery.
Yes, you read that correctly.
Our world was forever changed in 2013.
We welcomed our 4th baby to our family, Nolan Jacob Jones.
During my pregnancy, my husband and I were told he had a heart defect; AVSD.
We were told it was repairable and were so overjoyed with the news.
At that same appointment, we were told there was a high chance (90%) he would be born with Down syndrome.
I spent the following weeks praying, researching, and crying because I was in unknown territory, fearful for what this meant for Nolan’s future.
And if I’m being honest, mine.
As a Christian, I felt horrible praying, “God, please make Nolan be the 10%.”
Was I wrong for praying that he wouldn’t have Down syndrome?
I don’t know, probably.
I do know that sometimes my prayers come from a place of fear and I believe that’s why I prayed the way I did.
I am thankful God’s plan for my future, for Nolan’s future, was greater than any of my fears.
After moving past my initial worry phase, I began focusing on what a little miracle Nolan was.
“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.” Psalm 139:13-14
This verse gave me hope and strength.
Nolan is just perfect.
Nolan is God’s artwork and plan, and it was a perfect one.
I find peace in this because it means that God is not wrong, he doesn’t make mistakes with his creations.
“You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.” Proverbs 19:21
I am a planner.
I pretty much always have a plan and Nolan’s diagnosis was not in my plan.
It was hard for me, this type-A, “I like to control everything” personality to not have my plan workout the way I envisioned.
Well, come to find out, we hit the jackpot in the biggest way possible.
God’s plans are amazing, much better than mine.
We truly won the lottery with little Nolan.
Not in a bad way like many people, websites and medical professionals would tell you.
We are the lucky ones.
“As Jesus was walking along, he saw a man who had been blind from birth. 2 “Rabbi,” his disciples asked him, “why was this man born blind? Was it because of his own sins or his parents’ sins? It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins,” Jesus answered. “This happened so the power of God could be seen in him. John 9:1-3
I love this verse because Jesus is reminding us that God has a great purpose in what we recognize as an unfortunate disability.
We may not understand it completely, but the point is that God has a purpose for it.
My life is better because of Nolan. Our family is better with him in it.
I wouldn’t change a thing.
Yes, our lives are different now… but for the better.
Nolan has changed the way I think, act, speak, and love.
He has changed the way I spend my time.
He has made me a more compassionate person.
If he can change me in this way at 18 months old, I can only imagine how he will change me throughout his life.
Nolan’s future is bright.
Thank you Jesus for choosing us to be the lucky winners.
“Every Good and Perfect Gift is from Above.” – James 1:17
Stacey married her high school sweetheart, Andy, and together they have four children; Andrea, Hailey, Lincoln & Nolan. They have served in student ministry for over 11 years at Northwest Life Church in Renton, Washington.